It is gentital warts..
hi everyone. you all seem to have such a handle on this and i’m sitting here typing with tears in my eyes.
i started noticing symptoms 3 weeks ago, and suspected it was genital warts because i looked it up, so i went to my doctor last week and she told me i just had an infection and that a week of using monistat would clear it up. after a week nothing changed, so i went back to see her today. she told me it is gentital warts. i’m so angry at her for making me believe everything would be fine. i even told the new guy i’m seeing that everything will be okay soon and that it wasn’t genital warts like i thought. i know he’s not going to want to deal with me after i tell him my new diagnosis.
anyway, i don’t know what else to say. i know i need to talk to people about this. my friends don’t know anything about it so they’re no help. i’m glad this site is here. i’ve already learned some things that i didn’t know from reading all you’ve wrote.
thanks.
-andi
It may have looked like I had a handle on everything, but up until this afternoon, I didn’t. I cried out of the blue. I couldn’t sleep. I practically alientated my wonderful bf because I felt diseased. I found out Monday and have been hysterical since. I was relieved to find this site. I was more relieved to sit down with the doctor today and discuss everything. I’m figuring out this “coping” thing but I know I’ll have days when it’ll hit hard what’s happening. But talking here has helped. Alot.
Andi
My heart goes out to you. Believe it or not, you get used to it after awhile. First you have to deal with your issues of betrayal, and then, as though that weren’t enough, you have to get past societies stand on STDs. And then, you have to get your doctors to listen to you. But once all of that settles in, it is not so all consuming. I have known for 10 months now. I have my days of down-ness, but most of the time, I am ok.
About your guy. Firstly, chances are, if he is worth it, he will not take it nearly as bad as you think. If you have already slept together, then tell him as soon as you can. He needs to go get tested as well. If you have not slept together, it should be an easier conversation, though he would be less likely to be peachy with it. From the stories I have heard, the person you are sleeping with when you get the diagnosis knows they are just as screwed as you, so they dont feel forced to decide between you and HPV.
None of my friends know I have it either, or my family. I figured, the only person who needs to know is the one who I’m sleeping with, and of course my sister, who is the most open minded human being in the world, and she’s my best friend. You should find one person (real life person) to whom you can talk with about it, it helps with stress management. The higher levels of stress you have, the lower your immune system becomes.
I hope that you find your inner strength, and that you can find comfort in knowing you are not alone. As sad is it can be to realize it, this is what many people around the world consider a normal day.
They did the same thing to me when they found the lesions it was oh your clean you dont have anything until the biopsy’s came back then it was you have hpv- I balled my eyes out to and felt like my world was coming to an end- Then I got a second opinion and after that I really balled cause that doctor was a little more upfront on my specific condition, she let me know about the wonderful possibility of a hysterectomy- It will be ok I know it doesnt feel like it now and in a way it never will but somehow you find a way to live with it I guess its the surviaval spirit-